Showing posts with label piano. Show all posts
Showing posts with label piano. Show all posts

Life in the Key of Bipolar

February 3, 2013

Conversations with myself at hypomanic times often go something like this.

Me:  Stop playing piano and go get your work done.

Other me:  I am really on a roll.  I've got to keep playing.  And I need to play it perfectly.  I can't stop now.

Me:  You need to go make dinner, pay the bills, be a grown up.  Stop playing.

Other me:  Shut up.

Me:  Fine.  Whatever.

You see, I can't stop playing the piano when I'm creating a new song.  If I could, I would sit there and play the same new song without stopping all day long.  But I can't do that.  I have to force myself to stop.  I know I have a job, I have household responsibilities, and of course, I have a son to care for and spend time with.  But there is this magnetic force always drawing me back to the keys.  Calling me.  The blossoming melody singing inside my head.  I ignore it as much as I can.  But it nags at me.  I feel like if I don't finish a new song, I can't concentrate on anything else.

Other Me:  End this blog post and go play the piano.

Me:  This blog post isn't finished yet.  Proofread, revise, perfect it.

Other me:  Stop being such a grown up.  It's piano time.

Me:  Fine.  Whatever.